Wk 40-25 – Weekly Notes

Updates from Week 40, 2025

Monday, Oct the 6th.

I am late by a day.

And here’s an important note. I will not publish this for the 41st week. I am on the road and I dont want to open my computer. Let’s see how that experiment goes.

Ok, coming to the 40th. It was a fast week. I dont have a lot of distinct memories or even notes. They are sparse.

Oh, since I was a lot in traffic and in mindless work, I discovered and rediscovered a lot of music. Here are some shares. This band and fabulous singer. Doobey. So Good to Me. Rani. In fact I will feature Rani here.

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💭 Highlights, reflections and notes from the past week

PS: As always, these are not in any order.

A/ Lessons from Rana Sir
I met Rana Sir for a walk at Carter’s Road. While Carter’s is like Mumbai’s favorite hangout place and you see more fancy people than you see actual walker, Rana Sir, Chandni and I did walk.

And oh man, what a revelation. The guy’s a genius. I cant stop thanking my stars that I have him as a mentor. Here’s a page from my first and only book.

Page 282, The Nidhi Kapoor Story

And no, I am not making those lessons public, just as yet.

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B/ Bumping into people from Internet
In the last week, I bumped into two people who know me from Internet. Both these people have NOTHING in common with me (no common friends, no alma mater, no Starbucks, nothing), except we met on Internet. Via a thing them and I caused (I made some WA groups, they left some comments).

Not that I care for fame or something but these serendipitous connections make life worth living! Must strive for more!

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C/ Theatre
I’ve been DYING to see some life theatre performance for a while. And I havent been able to. I open bookmyshow everyday and I try to see what’s playing near me. And then I try and make plans around it. And then some work creeps up on me.

Come on, universe.

PS: If all goes well, on the 11th, I will attend something. Let’s see.

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D/ Cleaned and organised my life.
Since I moved on from C4E, I’ve not had someone to work with me. This means I dont have anyone to tell me what to on, who to push, follow up for me, give me file locations, jam with me and all that. And I was seeing the impact of that on my work. I was strruggling to even find my bearings.

So one of those days, I slept early and woke up at like 530 or something. And then I organised my life. Wait, not life. But work things. This means, I made a bookmarks bar where I listed all things that I am working on, cleaned tags in Roam, made my TDL and then some more.

As a test, I challenged AK to ask me pull a file that she was working on. And I could!

So, thats’s a big win for the week.

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E/ Jaane wale ko kaun rok saka hai
In the last week, two of the people I really care for told me that their number 2s are moving on. In one case, one even committed an act that is inexplicable.

I know people move on. I’ve had many folks move on. And even though I want to forget and forgive and understand, its a deep gash that I cant seem to find an answer to. Anyhow. The point is, people go. I am lucky that I’ve experienced this and thus when someone moves on, now it doesnt surprise me. Neither I am hurt. I have accepted the reality. Marcus would be proud of me.

However, it was tough to explain to both these folks. In both cases, my friends literally gave a part of their lives to the ones who’ve moved on. And the first emotion that they had was of surprise.

“How could he?”, “What did I do wrong that he had to do this?” and similar.

I had to explain to that often it’s not you or what you’re building. Just that the paths diverge. See the chart below.

Source: Unknown

This chart is an oversimplification of relationships but I think it works well.

You think and believe that what you’re building is the life of a parent or a dog but it’s actually a friend with benefit. And instead of being harsh on yourself about lack of judgement about identifying people, you ought to move on and try and find the next person who could stay with you.

I just hope more people learn this lesson, earlier in life. And yes, I am cruel to wish this upon you.

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F/ Hormozi on Mental Toughness
Alex has done GREAT service to humankind by making this video. I’ve communicated this to many people in many ways but I never had one reference point to it.

If there’s one thing you see this week, make sure it’s this.

PS: Dont be thrown off by the words you see on thumbnails. I’ve seen some very scary thumbnails for this video. Am sure some A/B testing is happening there.

Also, I am a big big fan of his work. Alex is what I would have wanted to be. Runs his life the way he wants to, eats well, works out and supports others.

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G/ Monumentum is taking shape
Some of my people are building this new thing. I am very excited for them. More about this in the next few days.

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H/ Financial Stress
Financial stress has reached its peak. I found myself scrambling to find avenues to take loans. I thought about revolving credit cards, taking a personal loan, asking for it from a friend (who will take it as an OD from his bank and give me).

No, I dont need solutions from anyone here. This is my battle and I will fight it. I just want to capture it here.

Oh, and the lesson from this bit is to get more money wise and fix my relationship with money. I need to be lot more open and upfront about it and stop leaving it on the table. At this time, I pay for convenience and to avoid tough conversations. I must build the resilience to not hate money.

I also wrote last week that I will start charging for my counsel, even if it’s token. I’ve not been able to bring myself to do that.

Any how. Let’s see where I end up.

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I/ Mahabharata
I have been writing one lesson a day from Mahabharata on Linkedin. It’s a brilliant exercise. I love it! It makes me read some part of Mahabharata, makes me read its interpretations, makes me connect to some thread from my life and then I write.

AK’s told me that what I write is not giving. I understand. I am trying to tweak it for the medium and the readers. And that’s ok. I ought to experiment. Maybe I will get a post written from AI and see how it performs. Actually good idea, lemme fire it!

I just prompted chatGPT.

Lets see what comes out of it.

The only trouble is, I don’t want to add to AI Slop and do things for the sake of doing those. Let’s experiment and see where it goes.

My chatGPT library 😀

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J/ Goa
I am in Goa this weekend for 2-3 days. I’ve not been to Goa in a while. While I am not looking forward to Goa as a place but I am doing this with my parents and thus.

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K/ SOTY
C4E is building a Student of The Year thingy. This has been one of my longest standing ideas. I was never able to execute this. I am glad that folks feel the importance of the same in my absence.

I am excited!

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L/ Notes from Apple in China
I’ve been reading the book for a while note. Each chapter is a treasure trove of knowledge and information and lessons. Just from yesterday’s reading, I am inspired to go deeper into storytelling, negotiations, sales and more.

I will write a longish post on this sometime. Let’s see when.

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M/ Sit in the Mud
I met a few people last week and one of them told me that she’s not been able to sleep for two days because of something that happened at her work place. Then I met another friend and he was also in that overthinking loop. And this is when I realised that even though folks have friends and families and all that, deep down, everyone is alone. And I really wish I could help fix those things.

At least to these people, I told them that they can reach out to me when they need inputs or counsel. They MUST not think that I am busy. I am never busy for my people. And even if they think they are bothering me, just say SOS and I will be there. I want to experience how it is to sit in the mud with you.

See this

Simon’s piece on sitting in the mud

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N/ Zone of Genius?
Read this.

I think I know where my zone of genius would be. At the intersection of ideas, connections, people, meaning.

This dawned upon me yesterday when I spent the day talking to people. For Meru, I did a session for some folks on writing. Then gave gyaan to some kids. Then helped someone else build his personal board of directors. And then walked with someone else. To a point that I was exhausted and wanted nothing but sleep.

I was in the moment, in the flow. Didnt know where time went.

And that’s probably where I want to be in life.

I am not sure how the money bit works on this. But may be I will explore this.

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O/ Focus
It’s no secret that I am the most unfocussed person there ever is. While I can club each thing I do into an umbrella (enabling people), it comes across as an excuse, even to myself, tbh.

So, I’ve been thinking about focus for a while. And what would it take to get that in my life. the very thought of this makes my entire being revolt. Why would I make my life into a unidimensional one when I can be free and explore?

I dont have answers. But I am thinking on this. May be I will pose this to my braintrust.

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📷 Some Photos from the week gone by

Here are some photos that I took and saved in the last week. Here.

The cover would be this…

Features all the things I love – Books, Starbucks (not coffee), stationary and mornings.

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Lemme know which one do you like the most. And do share some of your photos with me!

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🈺 LARGE objective from the week gone by?

I had two large things when I started this year. Book 2 and a yearly plan (that I’ve been writing for a long time. This year I couldn’t). And I just added health a few weeks ago.

Book 2 – There was no movement.
Nothing to report.

Yearly Plan – I dropped it long ago.
Now its time to think about the plan for the next year. Lol.

Health – I am thinking about this all the time but I havent been able to act upon it. From what I track, I am eating in moderation but neither my weight, nor my energy is getting fixed. Sigh!
PS: I track my health updates here, in case.

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☑️ So, what did I get done last week?

This is a one-line report on progress I made on various things that are important to me. I will only talk about things that I got done. Shipped. Not WIP.

  1. Health
  2. Meru
  3. C4E
  4. Brand SG
  5. People (Family, Friends, Strangers, etc)
  6. Book2
  7. Shauk (Music, Films, Poker etc)

Health. Not too many good things to report. I now try to”cook” one meal at home. This means I boil water, dump Saffola oats and each. Or I boil eggs. I am not walking. I am not even working out. I will put this on 0.

Meru. Making progress. Again, I can’t talk about it out loud. Will talk more when I ship. Oh, I did take a session on writing auto-biographies. A 0.

C4E. No action from my side. No comments. A 0.

Brand SG. No large things to report, apart from the fact that Riya has been consistent. I’ve realised that each thing I do or work on, once I have someone supporting me, things tend to move!

People. No action on this.
I’d say 0.

Book 2. Nothing.
So, -1

Shauk. No action.
No time.
a 0.

So the overall score for the week is -1

Last week I had decided that I want to get a positive score each week. And this means I need to organise my life better to ensure that I ship this positive score.

Will report once I do.

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📊 The tracker from the last week

Here is the tracker for the week gone by…

What trends do you see?

I see…

  1. Fewer greens
  2. Terrible recovery
  3. Ok on food

What do you see?


🏃🏻‍♂️‍➡️ Health

I added Health as a key section some days ago. I am still discovering what to cover here. Let’s see how it goes.

I read somewhere that you need 4 things to live long – sleep, exercise, diet and community. I will track all four. And then some more variables that I feel are important to me. Let’s see what comes out. Also, I log a few things at these links – food log, my daily health log channel.

1/ Sleep
Sleep was all over the place. I am aware. I will work on this.

2/ Exercise
No action. I dont know what to do about this 🙁

3/ Diet
I track each thing I eat on my food log.
I’ve not been able to fix this but I have reduced what I eat. See this…

4/ Community
No large movement on this.

5/ REDACTED
This was being tracked till the last week. I have stopped this from this week onward.

6/ Movement
No action.

7/ Meditation
No action.

Overall, the last week on health front was not good. Again, despite all this tracking, no action 🙁

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📖 Interesting Reads / Views from the last week

Not too many but here are some interesting ones…

1/ Baby naming gets you 30K USD! Here.

2/ This piece by Samarth on GLP-1. Incredible read.

3/ Did you know that Linktree is a billion dollar business. Read here.

4/ The difference between Great Britain, UK and Britain and all that. Link.

5/ Oh, I am reading this book these days. Painfully slow cos time. But a riveting read!

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🧠 Reminders from last week

This section captures things that I want to not forget. I add those to SG’s Office. I will copy paste these week on week and track updates.

I’ve been skipping this for a while now.
Lets see when I get back to this.

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🥡 So, one thing that defines the past week?

Regular.

I am running out of emotions to capture things. I need to be a lot more nuanced on this. Let’s see what that is.

Oh and in the previous weeks, the one-word reviews have been… Grind, Sad, Tough, Routine, Routine, Busy, Grind, Blur, Stress, Numb, Blur, Fast, Uncool, Disappeared, Experience, Grind, Busy for Nothing, Regular, Getting back to action, Slack, Busyness, Action, Survive, Looking Up, Survival, Taste, Community, Respect, Money, People.


Phew!
Lemme know what you think.
See you around.

Oh, and this too shall pass!

PS: This series of posts is inspired by Thej and his weekly notes. The previous editions are here: 0102030405060708, 09 (missed), 1011121314, 15 (missed), 16, 17 (missed), 18192021, 22 (missed), 23, 24 (missed), 2526272829303132333435363738, 39

PPS: Please do point typos.
Grammarly is not working well and I don’t have energy to cut paste edit this in some other spell check thing.

PPPS: In case you see me being inconsistent in anything – work, writing, reviews etc, PLEASE do point out.

Wk 14-25 – Weekly Notes

Notes, thoughts and reflections from the week gone by.

Morning!
Started writing this on Saturday (April 5) and

This was probably the fastest week of 2025.
And I am glad that it’s over.
Here’s my review for the week gone by.
Oh, I am listening to this as I write this.

🈺 The LARGE objective from the week gone by? And the next week!

I was to work on the 2025 plan and Book 2.

This has been consistent objective for the last few weeks. However, I have not been able to make any progress on these.

I can blame it on a lot of action at work. Actually, more than action, right now, its discussions and deliberations. I am hoping that once we have a team, I would have lot more time on hands. But as someone who takes pride in my ability to juggle things and do multiple things, this should have been easy for me. I need to find a way to solve this conundrum.

Anyhow, to summarise, I didnt make any progress on either of the goals. I need to buck up. I need to push myself more.

And like last time, I acknowledge that I didn’t work on these two.
I will try this week.

Moving on…

☑️ What did I get done this week?

I will give a one-line report on things I got done on various things that are important to me. I will only talk about things that I got done. Shipped. Not WIP.

At this point, the following things are important to me (I know too many but…) and these are IN ORDER.

  1. Health
  2. Meru
  3. C4E
  4. Brand SG
  5. People (Family, Friends, Strangers, etc)
  6. Book2
  7. Shauk (Music, Films, Poker etc)

Health. It was a terrible week. Sunday was the worst. I dont know what came over me. But I am back. Other days saw me with lack of sleep, eating kachra, no walks (except one day) and even happiness was questionable.
So, -1 there.

Meru. A lot of action here. Nothing specific in terms of what I can talk here.
So, a 0.

C4E. No action TBH. C is running the kitchen now. I am merely supporting. I have nothing to report here.
So, a 0.

Brand SG. No large actions. I did use AI to build some posts (will link further in the post) but nothing apart from that. This needs to more VERY VERY fast. So, I will be harsh on myself and give myself a -1.
So, a -1.

People. This was a clear -1. I did a few things that I shouldnt have. I mean I wont do them differently but I didnt know that it would have such large impact on people I care for. Apart from that I met some really interesting people that I look up to. So, if not for the snafu, I would have been a +1 on this.
So, a -1

Book 2. No action.
-1

Shauk. No large action. I am gonna travel to meet M. Maybe that counts? Maybe it doesnt. When I am evaluating myself, I want to give myself a harsh -1.
-1

So the overall score is -5 for this week. Same as last week.
Trends from the previous weeks: -5, -3, -2, -1
The max I can get is 7 in a week. Let’s see when I get to it.

📊 The tracker from the last week

Here’s the tracker.

What do you notice?

For me, the highlights are…

  1. I’ve stopped tracking my twitter updates. I think I can skip tracking this. I am habituated to write these. Lets see.
  2. A couple of days were not as good as I would want them to be.

What do you see?

📷 Some Photos from the week gone by

Here are some photos from the week gone by.

Not too many. Blame it on a busy week.

📖 Interesting Reads from the last week

I didnt have a lot of time to read or reflect in the last week but here are some that I did read…

  1. Naval’s podcast with Chris Williamson. I am at an hour and 30 mark. Took many many lessons. Saved some here.
  2. Akanksha Pandey’s March Reflections.
  3. This twitter thread explaining Kun Faya Kun
  4. How I’ve run major projects by Ben Kuhn. Here. At some point, I must write something similar. From Ben’s website, I spotted this post about how to write cold emails by Sriram K.
  5. This tweet by Erik
  6. This post by Morgan. A couple of quotes worth keeping are “The person who is desperate for attention and acceptance from a group of strangers is hardly different from the person begging for money on the street” and “The wild thing about all this effort is how easy it is to overestimate how much other people are thinking about you. No one is thinking about you as much as you are. They are too busy thinking about themselves.”

Next week on, I will also share a list of things that I share in my groups. I may not read all of those but I am sure it would be useful.

💭 Highlights, reflections and notes from the week.

Here are some from this week.

A/ Ankesh Kothari
Met Ankesh and as always, it was incredible to meet him. Among other things, he asked C and I this – “If you had to have dinner with any 3 people from history, who would they be? The answer shows who your heroes are. Then deconstruct what about them resonates, and you will have more clarity on your self.”

My dinner guests would include Steve, Charlie and Charles. Each is different from another – one was an individual poet, other was an investor and the third was an org builder. I should think more on this.

Who would be your three dinner guests?

B/ Rana Sir
Met Rana Sir for something. Went to his home. I almost didnt go but C reminded me that I need to. And thus, I went. As always, it was a brilliant three hours that I spent with him.

One of the things that came out of that meeting was my articulation that if I get physical proximity to young people, I can literally change their lives. Assuming they are willing to submit to me and they are willing to work hard. And then the follow up thought (that I didnt articulate to sir when I met him but was important) – that may be I am destined to be a coach and not a player. I am gonna be at best a Drona (not Eklavya, not Arjuna), a Ramakant (not a Sachin), a Coach Carter et al.

Something to think on. #currentThings

C/ Starbucks induced serendipity
I was at a random Starbucks far from home and I bumped into a classmate from MDI. And I used the opportunity to tell him about Meru. And about C4E. I dont know what would come out of that but it was incredible to have that farce-less chat with someone who knows me since 2004!

D/ Akanksha Pandey’s March Reflections.
One of the best pieces I’ve read in a long time. You must read it. I took a lot of notes. I learnt a lot about myself. I learnt a lot about AP. And thanks to this post, I have started to make public posts about what am thinking about. You may search for those here.

From her note, here’s a quote…

Fear, self doubt, self sabotage, procrastination, addiction, distraction, perfectionism… all can be overcome with stupidity, stubbornness, delusion, blind faith, obsession, arrogance & optimism.

PS: For the context, I had interviewed her for a role with me and she rejected me. Which is ok. But I’ve stayed connected and boy, am I glad! I knew that she would have pushed me to do more if I could get her around. But then as long as I am learning from her even from a distance, I am ok.

E/ Experiments with AI
I’ve been playing with some tools. Wrote two posts. Both via AI. I dont know what traffic would they get me. But it’s amazing that I can churn more content, faster. And I dont see a dip in quality!

I am also pushing C4E and Meru teams to become faster and better with the use of AI. We’ve made some strides. Commendable is AK and team’s foray on Labs with CQ. And then some more.

The ambition is that we would all be AI-enabled Centaurs (in words of Mihir) in the times to come and faster and sooner we get to that, better it is!

F/ Naval’s podcast with Chris
I have a 100 notes on this. I will make a separate post on it. At this time, I am saving my notes here. While I’ve captured this above, this needed a section in itself!

G/ Things I stand for.
Made a thread. I will update it as and when things change at my end.

To be read alongside Work With Me. And also see this photo album where I upload things that are important to me.

H/ People Snafu
I said something about someone that I know I shouldnt have. I cant get into details but I must write.

So, when I said what I said, I assumed what I said was innocuous, harmless, action-induing (I love to err on the side of action). That’s how I talk to people.

However, things were taken out of context, things were assumed without asking for clarification and then I was spoken in a not so cool tone.

I understand why I was spoken to the way I was spoken to. My actions hurt the other person. But then it was unintended. It was supposed to be a nudge in action and all that.

Anyhow. I am rambling. At this time, I know I didnt make a mistake. But I know my actions caused hurt. So, I am unequivocally sorry. I will try to do better.

I/ A-List Assholes
First. What is an A-List Asshole?
Someone who thinks they are A-list talent and are Assholes on top. They may or may not know that they are assholes!

Think of the most obnoxious, rude, unkind, tantrumy sports superstar or filmstar. And then port that person to the world of startups. Think of the rockstar coder that you know who’s also a bully. Steve Jobs would probably qualify to be an A-List asshole.

So, I was to interview someone for a client. And the guy turned out to be an A-List Asshole. I couldnt interview him (we couldnt agree on a calendar) but from the conversation, it seemed that the guy was heavily inspired by Silicon Valley types and was misplaced. Or may be I am misplaced. Irrespective. It was not going to work out. And thus I quickly retreated.

That’s a thing that I need to work on by the way. Stay away from A-list assholes. While it was ok for Steve to be one, in this day and age, I dont want those.

J/ Online selling Gurus
Met someone who told me about the work of these online gurus. You know people like Sadhguru, Robin Sharma, Brian Tracy, Tony Robbins, Dandapani, Dave Ramsey, Russell Brunson, Harv Eker, Chris Chroft and others.

For all the interest I have in cults, it was incredible to learn that cults and these sales conversations tend to be the same!

More on these some other day. But it was important to write and track.

K/ Venture Studios
I need to push C4E into becoming a venture studio. I’ve been reading about the likes of Tiny, Recurse, Late Checkout, Bending Spoon etc. Some of these may not be venture studios in the traditional sense but I like the idea of a small team building many things together.

Again, with Meru on the horizon, I may not get to do this with my time but I can nudge my kids!

Oh, here’s a thing. Most of my ideas are old ideas that I’ve been on since I was a child! I need to find a way to ship more and do more. I mean this venture studio idea, I’ve been on it since the beginning of time!

L/ 12K Steps #in2025
Made a bet of 50K with Annkur that at the end of this year, I will have averaged 12K steps. I made a similar bet with Subhendu. Let’s see.

This also reminds me that I will not have climbed the Mt Everest by Jan 1, 2026. Sigh.

M/ Other things that I want to capture but I may not spill too many words on…

  1. Found money on the road, two times, on one single walk. And I was listening to Naval’s podcast while I found that. Maybe that’s a sign!
  2. While listening to Naval, I was left thinking, should I get into podcasting fulltime?
  3. Implemented Paras Chopra’s TDL at C4E. See this tweet. Been 5 days and so far my score is 0. Lol!
  4. Met some clients for C4E for quick meetings. Not to pitch anything. Not to sell anything. Only to say hi. It’s incredible how many people have supported me on my journey! Eternally grateful.
  5. My back has started to give me trouble. I need to find a chiropractor or a masseuse. I dont want to go to a doctor. The skin thing is also spreading. So that needs fixing.
  6. Met Paras and asked him a few questions about this business. Must push him more.
  7. The number of times I wore pants and traveled this week to Nariman Point – I am reminded why I didn’t do the “regular life” all this while. Once we get an office, this will hopefully get fixed!
  8. Been thinking about US tariffs. Saw some videos. Read some but I am not able to wrap my head about how it would impact and what would the second order effects be. If you are aware, please share and help!

🧠 Reminders from last week

I am adding this section. To capture things that I want to not forget. I will copy paste these week on week and track updates. I will also add these to SG’s Office.

Here are things from the past weeks that I want to remember. And no, this may not be a comprehensive list. In categories.

  1. Health
    • Kitchen setup (incomplete)
    • Gym membership (incomplete)
  2. C4E things
    • C4E Base
    • Design
    • Borderless agency
  3. Shauk / Personal
    • Poker
    • Better dressed SG
    • Use of money / time
    • Love
    • Demand more from life

In case you know me, lemme know if I have missed something.

🥡 So, one thing that defines the past week?

Busyness. For nothing. Going forward, I will change this.

In the previous weeks, it’s been Action, Survive, Looking Up, Survival, Taste, Community, Respect, Money, People.

Ok!
This is it for the week gone by.
Late by a day but here nonetheless.
Lemme know what you think.
See you around.

Oh, and this too shall pass 🙂

PS: This series of posts is inspired by Thej and his weekly notes. The previous editions are here: 0102030405060708, 09 (missed), 1011, 12, 13

270821 – Morning Pages

I longish post on how work, social constructs, luck, self-flagellation, travel and more. Kind of depressing. Read with caution.

7:05. Lokhandwala. Even though I am mere 7 days away from quitting this place (and I’ve had this for almost a year now), I still can’t seem to call this place home. There’s nothing home-like here. Too many old things from the landlord. Too few people that I would’ve liked to invite to make this into a home. No memories, no routines, no customizations were created. And it’s ok. I dont think I will miss this place at all. This one remains the second most worse house I’ve ever lived in, in Mumbai. The one in Peter Apartments takes the cake. The common thing between the two is that both are old houses with older furniture piled by the landlord to expect more rent. The lesson is that the next house that I move in, has to be empty, barring the ACs. And I refuse to own things till I know I will not have to move. Shifting a house is probably more stressful than managing an event.

Anyhow. It’s gonna be gone in less than a week. I will move most of my things out tomorrow. Leaving behind a change of clothes, a couple of bedsheets, and some toiletries. Will move everything (writing table, books, etc etc) tomorrow. So, the dream of living in a bare house shall come true. I actually did it with the last house as well. I slept in the empty house after I had moved all my things. And it was discomforting and weird and interesting af. Let’s see how is the experience in this house.

So, yesterday was a good day. From 8 till about 3 I was at a Starbucks (not my regular one though) and had some 242 green teas. Then I met a friend for another tea. The highlight of that meeting is that the friend told me that he’s for a membership to the MCA. Wow! So so cool! Also reminded me of the challenge thrown by Rana Sir. #lifeGoal! Among other things, I gave a lot of gyaan to this friend about life and all. And I realized that I enjoy doing that. Who doesn’t 😀

Then I had a work meeting where I had to present something. Oh, and I enjoyed it! It went ok, to be honest, we could’ve done more. But I loved that I was in a conference room, talking about things. I must do it more often. I mean, while I hate this concept of inter-city travel, I love the idea of being able to jam intelligently on things. I wish I could do it more often. I am ok even life makes me a traveling salesman that is on the road all the time talking. I am ok with having no home to come back to. There’s actually nothing I can call home. Probably apart from my parent’s house in Delhi. That too is fading away soon – you know, I’ve been away for too long, I am used to this weird lifestyle where I dont want anything or I want it as plush as an Ambani would have. So yeah.

Post the meeting, went out with colleagues for dinner. Till that time I had refrained from eating. Even though I was on the road. And then I gave in. The time when I had to show my biggest restraint, I gave in. But then, I only ate in that one window. So OMAD nonetheless. Will try yet again today for a 48-hour fast. Lol!

The other thing I realized is that I am unable to hold conversations that are about worldly matters. I did not know the cricket score. I had no clue what is the ideological difference between Taliban and ISIS. And how are they different from others. I had no inkling of the films and Netflix series that they were talking about. But when the topics swung to work, I could talk and I was unstoppable. This uni-dimensionality to my life needs to either become more pronounced. Or needs to go. I don’t know which. But one of these has to happen. #note2self

So that was yesterday.

Today looks a little ok. I mean I dont have any rushed meetings anywhere. I do have a few presentations to make. I do have some slides to write. But that’s that. A lot of time will be spent packing whatever little needs to be packed. So far my life is contained in 3 Ikea bags full of books, a carton full of paper, a big suitcase full of clothes and that’s all. I will probably have one more carton and one more suitcase. Of course the writing-table and all that.

Oh, almost forgot. In the big news, the road trip that I was super excited about for the last month or two? It got canceled. Technical reasons. I will no longer be able to meet all those people that I had promised to meet en-route Delhi. I will no longer be able to do the long-planned atma-manthan. Maybe it wasn’t supposed to happen in the first place? Maybe it will happen while I am walking towards EBC? But then, who knows if that gets canceled as well? You know how life could be. Despite me being a destiny’s child, life does hand me lemons when I least expect it to. I think I should get this “Expect the best. Prepare for the worst.” tattooed on me. Apart from “this too shall pass”. Good that I sat with SJ2 and got my will actioned. In case he forgets, in the worst-case scenario, if I am gone, I want my digital footprint wiped. I’d have no way of knowing if that happens but I trust custodians of my will to manage that.

Oh, btw, I decided to make a vlog of the trip to EBC. I am going to buy a few gadgets – a camera, gimbal, battery packs, etc. I am not sure if I want to go all-in and think about the vlog (rather than being in the moment and walking and thinking). But the idea has taken seed. I need to think over the next 5-6 days if I want to do it. Let’s see.

So, I am taking a train to Ahmedabad to meet Krishna. And then from there on, I’ll take a flight to Delhi (will or shall?). This means that all the things that I wanted to dump in Delhi, I can no longer carry. I will have to trust SJ2 or Paras with those things. They are reliable people but then those things are not mine and I am a mere custodian and I want to thus be super careful. Also, I had thought I would take a few things that my parents could use in Delhi (read TV) but then that may not happen. These are the times when I sort of crave for a lot of money. You know, I would’ve bought a car and then dumped it in Delhi. The experience of being on the road for 5 days is what I was looking forward to. Wish I was resourceful enough to do this.

Wait. Fuck my misery.

The talk of resourceful reminds me of the Jeff Bezos quip. He says that the single largest quality he seeks in his partners / teams is resourcefulness. I think he said something like, “if I get trapped in a third-world country prison, I want my partner to be able to rescue me from there.” This is EXACTLY what is happening in Afghanistan. I am thinking if this were to happen in India tomorrow, do I have resourceful people to get out of India? Or if my favorite person was trapped in Af right now, could I’ve got her out? No. And No. So that means, I need to put in more work. And I need to inculcate this in every young person I meet.

To the thing above, if I need a balancing thought, I can say that I did get some help from a couple of loose connections (Jash and another writer) on a new project that I am pitching for. And both of them are willing to work on it without seeking any upfront compensation. So, in a way, I do have access to people that can help me if needed. Even last year when I needed help, I was surprised that loose connections were more approachable and helpful than the ones I share a strong bond with. Life’s funny like that. Actually, not life. Us humans are funny. We look at patterns and try and seek evidence in support of the ones we believe to be true. And I somehow manifest them to repeat. I can put forth a lot of examples. My romantic partners lose interest in me after a bit and consider hanging out with me an “embarrassment” in the worlds they live in. My “boy gang” continues to march forward on frivolous conversations and is hardly around to help with fuckeries of life. I seem to quit work right when I was just supposed to reap the benefits. I’ve lived almost 40 years with this pattern. This cycle. Dunno when and how I would break out of it.

Ok enough. Rant. Damn this promise to live in public.

Guess this is about it.

Felt amaze to write 1000+ words after a while.

Thing is, when I have things to write about, I can write fast and I can make sense. I just need to be able to do this even when I have nothing in my head. That’s when magic would happen!

Chalo with that, it’s over and out. In less than 35 minutes, I have 1500+ words. Well done, Mr. G!

Here’s the streaks.

  • OMAD – 0
  • #book2 – 0
  • #noCoke – 169
  • #noCoffee – 12
  • #aPicADay – 0
  • Money spent – 6770
  • Killer Boogie – 0
  • 10K steps a day – 0
  • Surya Namaskar – 0
  • 10 mins of meditation – 0
  • Minimaslism Counter – -2
  • Morning Pages / Meditations – 259

250821 – Morning Pages

Quick post on tabs pandemic, people, proximity, photos, pains of traveling in Mumbai.

7:43. In shelter. I am here till about 11. Have a few calls where I need to be in a silent, quiet room and defend a case per se. I can’t really take calls from Starbucks. I am thinking, the days I am gonna be in Delhi, I would not have a quiet room per se. I do have a separate room per se but I am not sure how quiet it is going to be. Let’s see when we reach there.

So the largest thing, on the top of my head, is the pandemic of unclosed tabs. I have some 1200 tabs open that need work on. I mean not open per se but the ones that I need to act upon. I dont even know how to close those. Some are videos to be seen, some are things to be read, some are things to do. I dont know what to do about it. I am in that circle where I open tabs like my life depends on those and then keep pushing them back. Any solutions anyone?

The highlight of the day has to be the walk on the Versova beach with AdiSave. We talked about life, work, projects, and all that. And then a quick meeting with SJ and him. We talked about TRS, the future, and all that. I love such meetings, such conversations. I love the idea of sort of planning where I want to be. And then actually making things happen that take us there. Also, I love these in-person meets. There’s something about being able to see someone from up close that a Zoom call does not cut.

Oh, and here’s a pick from the walk yesterday. I think this is among the best pics I’ve clicked in a long long time.

Tell me when you spot the guy. He was supposed to be the focal point 😀

The thing is, I could meet Adi Sir cos he lives close by. It’s not really walking distance but I can meet him fast enough if required. I also called Rana Sir. He lives far from where I am and thus it was a phone call (and not an in-person meeting). I spoke to Hemant Sir about things. While these phone calls are awesome, they’re not really my thing.

In fact, I wish everyone I care for, lived within walking distance from me. That’s the thing. At a point in time, VG made plans that all of us friends must live together as grow old. I am not sure if that will pan out. Let’s see if it does. I just hope it’s not in India. And if it is in India, it has to be a beach. Or mountains.

Actually, I can’t do a laidback life. I would want to be bang in the middle of the action! So let’s see.

What else?

Oh, I sat with SJ2 the other day and gave him dope on what to do in case I dont come back from EBC. I dont want to be the guy that leaves a mess behind.

Of course, I ate kachra like a man coming from a famine. No, not a good thing. But I can not seem to control what I eat and how I eat and where I eat and all that. I need to figure out a solution to this food problem. Ok. Here’s a promise. I will make another attempt at a 48-hour fast from today on. I had the last thing at around 1 AM last night. So I will try to eat the next thing on the morning of the 28th. Let’s see if I can manage.

Today looks like a longish day with a few meetings, few calls, and a lot of other small errands. Like I said, the first one is important enough for me to stay back and not go to a Starbucks. So that.

Guess this is about it for the time being. More tomorrow. I have to travel to Lower Parel tomorrow and need to stay there till 7:30 PM at least. Bummer. Dreading it already. The good part is that I have a train pass / ticket and that means I dont have to get stuck in the traffic. In the morning, it’s anyway ok. The evening is what I am worried about. Chalo let’s see how it is.

Oh, before I end, here’s streaks…

  • OMAD – 0
  • #book2 – 0
  • #noCoke – 167
  • #noCoffee – 10
  • #aPicADay – 0
  • Money spent – 1385
  • Killer Boogie – 0
  • 10K steps a day – 0
  • Surya Namaskar – 0
  • 10 mins of meditation – 0
  • Minimaslism Counter – -2
  • Morning Pages / Meditations – 257